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I am going to be 21 this December 2009. I really feel much more mature now than before. And people always say I have always been more mature than people at my age. I can feel that I become less self-conscious, less self-centered, less shy, less depressed. Thank God for being mature. However I will stay young. I will do whatever I like, even if people say it is so childish to watch cartoons and read mangas. I will stay young forever. I will relate to people,whatever their age. See, I am much less pessimist.

10:52 p.m. - 2009-06-07

We Will Play Together in This Life

Human are stupid. I have known that from a long time. We do stupid things and we regret and we cry and we get lonely and we think about suicide and we cannot see what we really have and we are scared of things that have not even happened. Just like you, I am so stupid most of the time. Doing things that I should not do, giving up so early, blaming others. I still try to remind myself that all these things will pass, so nothing actually matters. No need to worry too much, cry too much. However those sufferings are what differ happiness from sadness. So I guess it is okay to cry our eyes out, because we will laugh again tomorrow. This world is so colourful, with sad things and happy things in it, a thought that makes me happy and sad at the same time.

What I love to do

Answering questions in yahoo!7 Answers. I actually believe I can be a very good psychologist. Write fiction stories, although slowly, I don't care. I have to finish what I started. Friends are wonderful. Thanks to Chreezel who always influences me with new songs and books and movies. My world is never boring anymore.

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2009-06-07
Ok I need to write this down. This is too embarassing to tell to my friends cos I dont wanna sound like bragging myself.
There's this guy I just met once, and we didnt even talk that night becos we were too busy talking to other friends. Then we just exchanged emails because he took some pics of me and my friends so he could send it to me later. It ended up we were chatting and Idk what's wrong with me, I talk to him openly and freely, without any worries saying personal things to a stranger (or is it because he is a stranger, so I can talk freely?). Anyway, probably there's something about him, like showing all his attention and concerns for me, that makes me tell everything.
So everything between us is good, or even a bit flirting here and everywhere. I thought it is okay, since we're just having fun. He keeps asking Indonesian words so he can talk to me in Indo with those limited words. Well, at first he just wanted to tease me, but yesterday he kept saying in Indo that I'm beautiful. Many times. It kinda-okay, it makes me happy. It's really funny how sometimes I feel I'm beautiful, sometimes I feel ugly as hell. And in the end, look doesnt matter because I myself, like a kind, ugly person rather than beautiful,mean person. But by him saying it to me, assure me that it is true, it really boosts my confidence that I am beautiful. So now at least I should not worry too much about my look. Personality is where I should concentrate on.Oh well. Studying, is another thing. Exams are coming. What a pain.

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